About me

I just don’t know why every year is just a disappointment for me on this date. It’s like I really hype myself up thinkin it’s ever gonna be different and maybe special, yet every year just get sadder and sadder. Just wish, just one time I could feel special on this day, is all I’m askin. I know it’s kinda selfish, but I think I’m allowed to be selfish one day in the year, especially since I’m more a giver anyways. Oh boy…. At least I got to watch blink 182 4 2 days in a row. I really need to get away from this shit hole. It really is depressing when your ex is the only person to greet u… I really need to get the fuck away from her. All she does in my life is make my like miserable. And my “so call” friend. Hah! I called him 1 min after 12 and not even a greet or let’s hang out. Even tho He said I’m not doin shit and I’m offering the hang out. Matha fuker!! I’m just hating on the world and venting on how this special day never turns out so special… Ftw (fuxk the world)

now that i have escaped from a crazier time in my life, it seems that my interest have completely turn 360. for examples, i never liked watching horror films, ever since i was a lil kid, but now, seems like im always looking for it. like its my go to high or something. also everything i use to like, i dont seem to like as much. maybe this stage of my life im just striving for a change where its naturally happening due to the fact that i need to experience these (old) new things to get an exposure and/or a new beginning. p.s. i love zombies stuff. haha hope this upcoming experiences turn out more beneficial then hurtful. 

hmmm well, 21 year old joenard. i gotten into trouble a couple of months ago. I just talk to the lawyer earlier today. it should be wipe clean. moving back to the rents to save up. 2 gs. 2 g’s. yeah. n e ways. hmm im inspired, but maybe for all the wrong reasons. today i cursed at God. i do feel bad but to my defense. everything that could go wrong, did go wrong. i just need to leave again, is how i feel. not sure where i would go tho. all i know is if your reading this in the future, YOU BETTER BE IN A BETTER POSITION THEN YOU ARE NOW!!!! I still want a bike, and a 240sx. interested in breakin again. i know my true friends are, phil and gustavo. i dunno why everyone else just comes and go. its really sad. but all i know is that as long as there by my side (as well as God and Jesus, of course) then all should be well. i am going, wait. let me rewind.  I WILL GO BACK to school in the fall of 2012. that is final!!! its gonna suck but hey. this is my future and i need to make something out of it. working 2 jobs isnt worth it n e more. and i damn dont wanna do this my whole life. hey, you got your first smart phone… LAST YEAR. Yeah, i got an iphone, i know its really common, but it really have change my life for the better and i thought it was worth mentioning. this is my last night as security for this convention. am i going to miss the long nights by myself 12 am to 8am doing absolutly nothing. nah. but i met a cool person, narcis. from guam. haha i can tell we gonna be cool. i wish i brought my labtop from the beginning tho instead of the last 2 days. lol. n e ways. im thinkin about being a pharmacist… or a radiologist technician, aka x ray tech. 

well. gotta go :) see ya

hmmm well, 21 year old joenard. i gotten into trouble a couple of months ago. I just talk to the lawyer earlier today. it should be wipe clean. moving back to the rents to save up. 2 gs. 2 g’s. yeah. n e ways. hmm im inspired, but maybe for all the wrong reasons. today i cursed at God. i do feel bad but to my defense. everything that could go wrong, did go wrong. i just need to leave again, is how i feel. not sure where i would go tho. all i know is if your reading this in the future, YOU BETTER BE IN A BETTER POSITION THEN YOU ARE NOW!!!! I still want a bike, and a 240sx. interested in breakin again. i know my true friends are, phil and gustavo. i dunno why everyone else just comes and go. its really sad. but all i know is that as long as there by my side (as well as God and Jesus, of course) then all should be well. i am going, wait. let me rewind.  I WILL GO BACK to school in the fall of 2012. that is final!!! its gonna suck but hey. this is my future and i need to make something out of it. working 2 jobs isnt worth it n e more. and i damn dont wanna do this my whole life. hey, you got your first smart phone… LAST YEAR. Yeah, i got an iphone, i know its really common, but it really have change my life for the better and i thought it was worth mentioning. this is my last night as security for this convention. am i going to miss the long nights by myself 12 am to 8am doing absolutly nothing. nah. but i met a cool person, narcis. from guam. haha i can tell we gonna be cool. i wish i brought my labtop from the beginning tho instead of the last 2 days. lol. n e ways. im thinkin about being a pharmacist… or a radiologist technician, aka x ray tech. 

well. gotta go :) see ya